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Don’t look so sad…a journey with death.

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For my Mom: Kris Kristofferson’s For the Good Timeshttp://youtu.be/Ovb_iRWcqsc

Life is a beginning, a middle, and an end, the time frame for each of us is different.  Even when we are fully aware of the end, it is almost always still a shock to our soul.  We are not equipped to breeze through the end of our loved ones life.  No matter how much lead time we have, no matter how long we have been preparing, our minds, hearts and soul are left wanting. 

Each time that I have dealt with loss has been traumatic for more reasons than the loss itself.  My realization must than be that death brings out the worst in many people.  For reasons, sometimes obvious and sometimes not, there always seems to be more obstacles in death than there are in any other time of our lives.  Now maybe it is just me…but I don’t think it is.

As I just shared with my loving cousin this morning: Today I will just focus on the love I have in my life and smile at my sorrow. My meditations have taught me to live in the present moment as it is the only moment we truly have, yet when times like this are upon us, it is hard to follow the path of our own philosophy.

I guess that stumbling through these difficult times is the learning experience that is supposed to enrich us as human beings, I say they just suck.  None of us are perfect, our views of others are also flawed, how can we truly know someone when we are constantly learning about ourself.  If we are always changing and evolving, the best that we can hope for is that those who love us, will always love us, not always the case in life, but we can still hope!

As a teen I used to be woken up on weekends to my Mom blasting Kris Kristofferson on the record player and singing loudly with each song.  I would toss and turn in bed, wanting nothing more than a few more hours of sleep.  Finally I would have to give into that music, get up and start my day.  If you are reading this, please take a moment to listen to this song, and lovingly think about all the many ways that your parents tortured you.

Have a ROCKIN’ day, Mama

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We all shine on…some more than others! Be a Lighthouse…

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Music that makes you think and feel, reflect on  your own life and the lives of those you love.  John Lennon was and still is an artist who truly had a gift, one that keeps giving.  As we live this life that we are so generously given, it is part of our journey.  Make the most of the time you have, shine while you have the chance.  So many waste the opportunity to shine “…like the moon and the stars and the sun…” until the next phase of their journey. 

Right here, right now is the time to shine, not only for those you love, but for yourself.  That inner glow, that light that draws people to you is so special.  We all have it, we just need to ignite it and let it shine.  Do whatever it takes to let your light shine, hang your freak flag high for all to see.  Have as much fun during this life so that when you leave…it is like a shooting star streaking across the sky in all it’s beauty and awe.

Teach you children to be creative and innovative and to always learn from every experience they have to become a better person.  Give them this spark and their light will guide their life and spill over for others.  Even during difficulty, let your light shine to help you and others to endure.  Don’t be selfish with your light, share it with everyone…even strangers.  You never know when your goodness can make a change for someone else.  The smallest gesture of kindness can have the greatest impact. 

Be that person, be good to yourself, give that light freely and see how much you can impact others. May “We all shine on” forever. Peace and Love, Mama 

Today in ROCK history: 1970 – John Lennon writes and records “Instant Karma (We All Shine On).”

Stoners and Jocks and Geeks…Oh My! Add a little Frankenstein…

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Remembering back to when my older brother was in High School, there were groups of students that fell into different categories (as there always has been and will be.)  There were the Frats, the Pits and I’m sure the Geeks. My brother was a Frat…kinda clean cut, into music, basketball and girls.  The Pits were more like the Greasers of the 50’s, slicked back hair, comb in back pocket, tough guys.  The Geeks, well no need to explain!

Then, when I went to H.S., there were the Stoners, the Jocks and the Geeks…well I wasn’t a Geek and I didn’t play sports.  I only participated in the classes that I enjoyed and I ditched a lot.  Still got decent enough grades, but really didn’t try.

Now, why the trip down memory lane?  My husband is a H.S. Language Arts teacher (use to just be English when I went to school.)  This is his third year in education.  So I feel like I’m back in school again and I realize that by not putting any effort into my education, I missed out on a lot.  Since I love to read, I have decided to try and read all of his assigned reading.  Now I have to mention that he teaches Freshman L.A., Sophomore L.A. and AP Lit…so there is a ton of stuff to read.  Like I mentioned, I love to read so I am also reading for pleasure at the same time.  Currently I am reading Frankenstein and The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo.  Reading most of the assigned books makes me realize that I did miss a lot of excellent reading back then.  I have to say that I did read back then, just my own choices.  Nobody was gonna tell me what I had to read! 

Besides reading, I have also begun to write, I started with poetry, which if you have read my previous blogs you would know that I recently lost all my computer files to a vicious virus.  Seven months worth of poetry gone!  I am also writing a story, trying my hand at a novel, I was able to save that file at the last-minute. I have a hard copy, but would have hated to retype 67 pages. 

Now as if that is not enough, I have also decided that I would like to draw.  Haven’t drawn since I was a kid and doodled cartoon characters: Snoopy, The wizard of Id, Top Cat.  I did my third sketch yesterday, I try to write a poem or journal entry to go with my drawings, this time I wrote the poem first, the night before and then the drawing.  I don’t think it is too bad for a beginner but I know it could be much better.

I am also teaching myself to quilt and am currently working on my blocks.  This will be a much slower process as I can’t sit at the sewing machine forvery long.  I hope to have it done before summer. This first one is a 54″ by 72″ Classic Rock quilt.  Didn’t want to start too big until I knew what I was in for.

I hope you all have a full and ROCKIN’ day, Mama

Today in ROCK history: 1979 – “I Fought The Law” is the perfect U.S. debut single for The Clash.

 

Rock-N-Roll Quilt…Animal Farm – Pink Floyd

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On Friday I finally got in to see a Neurologist for  my migraines.  I am trying a treatment that was just approved by the FDA in the fall…so that means that if you qualify, more than 15 severe headaches per month, you can get Botox injections in nerve spots all over your head, neck and back. 

Since I have headaches nearly everyday, I am hoping that this treatment will help.   I was told that it could take up to a week before you will start to feel the advantages of the treatment.  Keeping my fingers crossed!

I recently started making all of my own products, such as: soap, lotion, lip balm, deodorant, laundry soap, shampoo and conditioner.  So far so good, I love knowing that there are not any chemicals in my items.  I love everything that I have made so far so I will continue to experiment with this new hobby.

I also decided to try to make a quilt. I have never made one before but so far it is going well.  Of course this will be a Rock -N-Roll quilt made from t-shirts.  I’ve got all my blocks cut and interface material put on the backs to give the blocks more stability, since t-shirts are rather flimsy.

I wanted to make my blocks 15 1/2 inches square.  To by a guide that size costs around $40, I went to Michael’s and bought a piece of foam board, had them cut it to size and it only cost $1.50 and I have enough left over to make another guide that will be 12 1/2 inches for future quilts!  The guide that size cost $22, I love to save money!

I will post pictures as I complete steps on the quilt, above is the layout we decided on.  Have a ROCKIN’ day, Mama

Today in ROCK history: 1977 – Pink Floyd releases ‘Animals,’ a bleak concept album that appears to have drawn on author George Orwell’s ‘Animal Farm’ for inspiration.

Grey skies are gonna clear up!

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Today is cold, snowy and the skies are grey.  I have enough wood brought in to have a beautiful fire in the wood stove.  I’m thankful for that!  I’m currently reading two books, Frankenstein and The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo.  It may be a snuggle on the couch and read kinda day.  Anyway…

I know that by this age, I should have everything figured out, and I do have a firm grasp on a lot of things; but I still need time on others.  It’s hard to be everything you want to be.  It’s not easy to finally decide that who you are is alright!  With all of our faults also comes all of our perfections.  We seem to always focus on the faults.

I say we try to focus on the things about ourselves that are great…on what ever we do well, and what makes us happy.  If by what ever age you are, you still have faults and things you wish you could change, just embrace whatever it is and forget about it.  We are usually our own worse critic.  Embrace everything about yourself and soon you will find that the things that you use to focus on are pretty minor in the scope  of who you are.

Make 2012 the year that you are kind to yourself, with this new-found attitude you will also find that your new focus will make others want to be more like you.  Happiness and Love, Mama

Today in ROCK history: 2000 – Sharon Osbourne resigns as the Smashing Pumpkins manager for ‘medical reasons.’ “(Frontman) Billy Corgan was making me sick,” says Osbourne, who was the group’s manager for less than four months.

Nikki Sixx Dead or Alive: too interesting to pass up!

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This Is Gonna Hurt: Music, Photography and Life Through the Distorted Lens of Nikki Sixx

If you are older like me, you would have experienced SO much great music, have gone to tons of concerts, and still have a thirst for the music of your youth.  I’m not saying that I do not also like many of today’s artists, but I LOVE older music – it is a part of me.  Is that to say that you can’t teach an old dog new tricks?  Not at all, a prime example of that is Nikki Sixx formerly of Motley Crue. 

If you have not experienced him as an author, you need to check out his books!  Now this is not conventional reading so be prepared or pre-warned, which ever the case may be, but it is worth it.  This Is Gonna Hurt: Music, Photography and Life Through the Distorted Lens of Nikki Sixx is an incredible read.  It is also a teachable lesson to everyone, which in itself is quite shocking.

Take some time to get to know yourself through exploring things that are outside of the norm for you.  This is what life is about, stretching our boundaries in order to be more compassionate humans during our lives.  It doesn’t matter how you expand your mind as long as you do, ABC, Always Be Consuming new information.  It pays off in more ways than you can imagine.  Don’t limit yourself, set yourself free on this wonderful journey called life!  Have a ROCKIN’ day, Mama

Today in ROCK history: 1987 – Motley Crue bassist Nikki Sixx dies from a drug overdose. He is pronounced DOA in the ambulance before two adrenaline shots in the chest revive him. Later, he checks himself out of the hospital (ignoring medical advice) and goes home where he records an answering machine message. “Hey, it’s Nikki. I’m not home because I’m dead.” He then takes more heroin and passes out again. Good times.

Under Pressure

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Everybody deals with life’s ups and downs in their own unique way. Keep in mind that music soothes the savage beast… When things are not going just right – or when everything is completely falling apart, turn on some good tunes and feel the rhythm, let it soothe your soul and calm your mind. No matter what type of music you like, no matter what the world throws your way, do yourself a favor and find a way to get out from being UNDER PRESSURE. There is nothing like great music, or your favorite book, or doing some yoga, or taking a walk on a beautiful day – or whatever turns your crank, to change your mood. We choose our path, and our path can be beautiful, what path will you choose today?

Make sure you check out my ROCKIN’ custom-made DIY tops…and get your groove on!

Today in ROCK history: 1981 – The David Bowie/Queen song “Under Pressure” tops the UK charts laying the groundwork for Vanilla Ice’s one shot at fame.